No joke, I'm actually failing, but I don't know what's worse failing or not really caring anymore; Well both are happening so it doesn't really matter. So if you cant tell the psychology resit went really well, that's obviously why I sent an apology email to my psychology teacher for the test he's about to receive. the worst bit is that I have to stick with the subject, hahahahhahahah actually pray for me long and hard. I'm not even joking. As I keep getting told its not the end of the world and I'm like it kinda is, don't get the grades means not going to university, which means not art degree which results in me not getting the job that I want, and if I don't have a job I wont have money and if I don't have money I will either die of starvation, hyperthermia or dehydration as yano I like being extra and a drama queen but grades aren't the end of the world at all :)
Moving on so I don't cry again for the 4th time this week.
Don't get me wrong I'm lucky and I love everyone... well nearly everyone in my life but in my head I just like is this normal people like have a bad day but I'm lucky if I get a few hours without thought passing through my head. like yano with people who have OCD, they say its constant worrying always in there head, well that's the only way I can describe it but its about moiiii. I sound like Alice or even the mad hatter, I now understand why my mum worries.
Right not even kidding I had a doctors appointment on Wednesday and my mum just sat in the room staring at me as if I was mad or like she didn't know who I was whilst I rambled on to the doctor. But he did say I was stable but I kinda went in earlier today, as yano when you are a patient of concern there like come in when ever and have a chat if you need to, like I always said I wouldn't be that needy person but I did it, I also went to had in my pink appointment but I went in crying cause I thought I was crazy, by pass 2 hours I'm no longer classed as stable.
Okay on to a happier note we have had a partial heatwave, or a heatwave if you ignore the rain, it is amazing like that amazing I wore a dress to college, without tight but with a jumper but I couldn't have done both but I did it, I was stressing all day like about myself but I did it and I'm proud of my self for doing it, like I rang my friend that night and cried cause I didn't think I would do it, so there ya go a life lesson just do it cause you will never know if you can until you try. But ye it was good and we were on the grass and we sang for the anniversary of the Manchester arena which was really cute and noice cause there were sooo many people there and people were doing speeches and writing messages. Also the bus ride home on Wednesday was nice I enjoyed it I think it should happen. Another good ride home was Tuesday as it was a Squad ride home without Kylah, especially with Ethan and his crispy Sandwiches, also Emma is such a sweet heart she walked the long way to walk longer with me, like she is precious.
So then on to Thursday which we don't talk about because of the exam hahahhahah.
On to today, after the doctors I went out with my Aunt/Granma idk what to say but I went for a chat up cause as family drama is great. But she took me out for food, which Megan heard all about. Shout out to her on the phone right now, complaining about how she hasn't been featured. Also advice for those who are going thought exams which told Megan earlier is that they are not the end of the world and you can always do them again. Yes ino I'm a hypocrite. But just remember to keep calm and always take a bottle of water because it can help calm your nerves. Also do the harder question first o then your are not panicking about your timing at the end for the longer questions, another thing I did was in maths paper I started from the back so I knew the more I did the easier they would get as the easy ones are at the start of the booklet and with English I do the long essays first so I don't have to remember all the information till I get to them or I like dot all my quotes down straight away. However people don't always need good grades to be successful as Prince Harry, Benedict Cumberbatch, J.K Rowling and Simon Cowell didn't get good grades and made it in life also fun fact Einstein was also dyslexic.
So ye life is great.
Also shout out to my Grandad as he was 80 yesterday, he is actually the cutest and I don't care what you say he is the best Grandad.
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