I didn't know what to post so I decided to do a mini update from mock week and just somethings going on. So first of all I don't have any mocks because I only do art subjects as I dropped psychology because there's stuff going on that a few people have picked up on and messaged me about and asked me to talk about it but I'm not going to as I'm not exactly comfortable and its just complicated.
Monday I didn't go into college and went shopping with my grandma as I haven't asked for anything for Christmas and everyone in the family is asking me and its stressing me out, as I don't exactly want anything so to kinda just make them happy or at least to not ask me so much I went shopping with my grandma to look at stuff. This was a fail because I didn't find a dress for Thursday or Saturday which I kinda of need so love that for me but also if we walked past anything I was asked a bunch of questions of if I want it or anything like that, honestly hate it so much and Trafford was soooooo busy which didn't help.
Tuesday was possibly the best day because I had an appointment n the morning where I was told the best thing ever even though other people weren't happy about it I was, literally still so happy about t now. Anyway after that me and Eleanor went shopping so I could actually find a dress and heels, as well as things for Shanice's present, this was semi successful like I didn't buy a dress but we narrowed it down to two and it was just a fun day, I actually don't know what I would do without her sometimes. I also re dyed my hair today as it was needed, well it was actually needed a few months ago.
Wednesday I stayed at college all day to get some textiles and photography done as our deadlines are in like 2-4 weeks (I actually don't know cause every teacher says something different).
Thursday I stayed home and helped my mum paint the kitchen so it can be all tidied, I also sent off my application for art foundation but nothing else really happened but I did go to dancing at 3:30 to go help with the younger classes.
Friday (just a little bit stressful)I had to be for photography at 9 but I was late but its not really a big deal so I saw my teacher then went down to textiles so miss could see my work and then technically I could of left but I stayed cause I was supposed to be going on a DATE, wtf ino what is life. Anyway me being the amazing person I am stayed until 3 literally just doing textiles but I did go see jenny before her music exam. Here's the problem, I a stessy person like really bad its actually quite bad how funny, but I spent the times with jenny before her exam and whilst she was in her exam stressing because I had my friends performance to go and see and I didn't know when his exam finished so I freaked myself out and left with jenny because I didn't want to miss Emily's performance cause I would have literally hated myself. So I texted him saying I was going home cause I needed to get back and then I spent the whole bus journey justifying it I guess in my head, cause I didn't want to be there stressing about getting back cause that's just unfair and would have just ruined it, so ye we did that then I semi complained to jenny's mum about it cause I was that stressed (this is why don't do these things its my talent I guess to ruin things love that for me actually though idk what state its in). Then it was really awkward and whilst jenny was eating downstairs I rang Eleanor and stressed about it, she kept me sane and completely agreed with me so it was alright I felt better. So we watched my friends performance, she was amazing a usual and then I went home and there was a Christmas tree (side note, all week I have been wanting one and that day I said if there isn't a Christmas tree when I get home I might cry after everything else but there was so we were all good).
little Christmas tree appreciation ...
So welcome to my messy life, I will update on the situation if anything changes but I messed up so I don't think it will other than that I will post again two days before Christmas.